30-Weeks

Yesterday, I had my 30-week appointment & I had a good chuckle when my doctor walked in and said, “How many of your appointments have I missed?! How are you already 30-weeks?” To which I immediately responded, “If it makes you feel any better, I’ve been to ALL my appointments & I still don’t know how I’m this far along!”

And literally, that’s been this second pregnancy in a nutshell. I swear I just peed on the stick like two weeks ago & now somehow, here I am…10 weeks away from meeting my son. Whoa, another thing I still can’t wrap my head around…I’m having a boy! I’ll have a son…a daughter & a son. God is really just too good…He has really blessed me with one of the sweetest families ever!

I haven’t divulged a whole lot of information on this pregnancy & I can promise you it hasn’t been on purpose – it’s mostly just because it’s been pretty uneventful. Which I am SO thankful for! Aside from the horrid exhaustion & nausea from the first trimester I’ve been very fortunate to have a relatively easy pregnancy. And trust me, I say that very cautiously because I know that not everyone is so lucky.

It’s like when I hear how a mom pushed for 20 minutes & their baby just came right out! I outwardly say, “That’s so amazing – congrats!” And MOST of me truly means that…but a little tiny part of me is insanely jealous because my delivery with Quincy was nothing short of traumatic. I’ll spare you all the gory details, but there was a point where Jordan thought I was going to die & I don’t say that in a sarcastic way. I’ve never seen him cry so hard in my life.

Which is actually why I was so terrified to get pregnant a second time…I couldn’t stand the idea of enduring a delivery/post-recovery like that again. It’s actually caused quite a bit of anxiety with this pregnancy. But with each wave of nerves or moment of weakness, I’ve been trying to give it over to the Lord & take comfort in the fact that He already knows how everything will play out.

He knows my entire future, how many children Jordan and I will have, what their names will be, what they’ll do when they grow up & everything in between. It makes me think of this song, “Known” by Tauren Wells.

“It’s hard truth and ridiculous grace
To be known fully known and loved by You
I’m fully known and loved by You”

I think it will always blow my mind & them immediately give me a sense of peace knowing that HE is in control of everything.

All of this to say, soon we’ll become a family of four & we’ll have to readjust to our new normal. Quincy will be a big sister,  Jordan will have the son he’s always dreamed of & I’ll have the world’s most precious family in the whole world.

And a HUGE thank you to everyone who’s been so supportive of our little family. Thank you to those who have prayed for us & with us & who have spoiled us endlessly. Thank you to those who have loved our Quincy Rose like their own & a continuing endless thanks to those who will always be there for us. You guys are the real MVPs & we wouldn’t be able to do this without you guys, our village of loved ones.

Thanks for stopping by, friends!