Three to Four

Well well well…this is some REALLY exciting news that I get to share with you guys! My little baby girl, my sweet & spicy Quincy Rose…is about to have her world rocked. This fall, our family is growing from three to four…she is going to have a baby brother or sister!

Oh man…even as I type that or speak it aloud, I still have trouble wrapping my head around it. I’m not entirely sure why, but this pregnancy has felt so much more different than my first. I honestly think I’m MORE nervous the second time around. How will I be able to handle two? How will Quincy adjust to our shared attention? Will she immediately love her little sibling, or will it be a constant battle between the two? But most importantly…how oh HOW am I going to survive on such little sleep again!?

I’ve heard so many of my mama friends say this & man it is so true…this second pregnancy has already gone by SO quickly! We found out really early on, I was only about 5 weeks pregnant. Actually, let’s dig into that a little more because how and when we found out is a little humorous.

We had talked for months & months & months about when we would want to start trying for a second; when would be a good time? How old do we want Quincy to be? What if it takes longer to get pregnant the second time around? So many unknowns & so many variables…which in reality is kind of hilarious because Jordan and I can plan our futures until we’re blue in face, but God’s timing & plan for our lives will always ALWAYS trump our own.

With that being said, it was a Monday evening & Quincy was being unruly. And when I say unruly I mean screaming her tiny little head off from the moment I picked her up from daycare to the moment she went to bed. She screamed on the car ride home, she screamed the entire time I made dinner & she screamed while Jordan and I ate said dinner. There may have been 5 minutes of reprieve when she wanted a few bites of food, but then it was back to more screaming & more tears. Before you judge me & ask why I didn’t try to comfort or console her…oh, Lordy did I ever?! I tried every trick in the book, but the girl was just NOT HAVING IT.

At one point in the evening, Jordan “jokingly” told her that she if she didn’t clean up her act, she was going to be an only child. I’m about 99% sure we put her to bed early that night because both Jordan and I had reached our max & while I was reading her a bedtime book & she was peacefully drinking her milk…a big thanks to sweet baby Jesus! Jordan haggardly came into her room & said he was going to a meeting & that he just needed to get out of the house. I couldn’t blame him because I was already planning on soaking in a steaming hot bath while downing a bottle of wine as SOON as she was safely in her crib.

I’m not sure what spurred me to take a pregnancy test…my period wasn’t late, I wasn’t feeling sick, I definitely didn’t feel pregnant, but I thought, “What the heck? Let’s just see what happens??” #FamousLastWords

My jaw legit hit the bathroom floor when I saw the positive pregnancy test. I had never had a positive test with Quincy (that’s another story for another time) & I could not believe what I was seeing. I’m going to be brutally honest here for a second so buckle your seatbelts. My first thought…”Holy sh**, Jordan is going to lose his mind.” We had just survived one of the most brutal nights we’d had with Quincy in a really long time. How in the heck was I suppose to tell him that in 9ish short months, we’d be bringing home another one, without his head exploding? I went with my gut & withheld the news from Jordan for an entire night…which if you know me, was the most difficult thing I’ve ever done. I’m the kind of person that as soon I find out exciting news, I immediately have to share it! But I wanted to just take some time for myself & really let the news sink in before I shared with anyone else.

After a good night’s rest, we (and by we, I mean Quincy) were in much better spirits & during our morning family prayer time, I dropped the bomb. I didn’t realize it, but I was actually holding my breath & once I saw Jordan smile & his eyes fill with tears, I was immediately relieved. There was no turning back now anyway…we’re in this together for the long haul! While we have no idea what this change will look like for our family, I’m extremely confident that the Lord will provide us with the patience, knowledge & discernment to raise this growing family of ours!

While I’m weirdly more nervous this time around, I’m also really excited to be sharing my experience with you all along the way!

Thanks for stopping by, friends!

And a few more photos because Quincy is just TOO cute not to share!